What if I accidentally fell in-love? You were like a dream. Now everyone is looking, talking about us. From prying eyes, let’s turn and run away from everyone. I’ll take the lead. I will spend my whole life listening to all the stories you want to tell. I’m sure it will be all worth it. Because you’re worth it. It is more than all those risks and labels. It is more than the people who judged us. Maybe truth will set us free. Maybe it won’t. But we got to try. Take a leap of faith with each other. Than to miss a lifetime of happiness.
I’m sorry. I fell out of love. You know that we tried. I tried. But I can’t feel you. I looked deep into your eyes, I saw your sadness. Despair. I can feel your distress. Guilt can maintain and preserve our relationship but I don’t want that. You don’t want that. I know, it is hard to accept the truth, specially we already made this far. I will treasure all the time we spent together, the memories that we made. I don’t want to make any excuses. It happened all of a sudden. I didn’t intend to hurt you. I gave up. Now, I just want to thank you for everything. I’m sorry.
He sat there in silence. No one could melt his ice-cold heart. Extenuating circumstances bewildered his feelings like an emotion soup. He is actually freaking out as he can’t deal with more than one emotion. She got underneath his skin. Did not even give him another chance to stop her from walking away. And why would she? It is his fault all right. He cheated. Lied. Broke a promise. Got confused with sexual intensity and romantic intimacy. Reluctant to accept the consequences he made, he ended up feeling guilty and frustrated.
Our meeting was pure happenstance. Now, I’m here all alone in a particular space of time. A place where I reached my total solitude. I can think of our thousand happy memories together but the thought died aborning. Time will tell how much I love you. Yet time also taught us that everyone has to say goodbye sooner or later. What a cliché. She had me. The feeling was so ugly, so alien. I could say that she casted a spell on me, but like love, happy endings are just for fairytales.
A perverted stare studied her curves. Imaginary touching her, inch by inch, part by part. That expression in her lovely eyes and everything look surreal just from looking at her. Incredible. As his mortal lips wants to kiss her everywhere. Hesitant to approach her, he will then realize that he is in-love, truly, madly in-love. He simply wants to be with her every night and day since he has his motives both good and bad. As love is no accident, for smile is the beginning of every love. Will he confess his love or will he deny it again? Destiny will still find a way through doubts he said. He will wait for the perfect moment. Dubious, he then asked himself, “For how long?”.
It’s been quite a while, I can still see your troubled heart, you’re sad. Your eyes told me everything and with a certain degree of incredulity you want me to rescue you from your destiny. Well, despite of various wishful attempts it seems that no one is looking to save this damsel in distress. No one seems to understand you. As you are and will be forever in a limbo. Stuck between once upon a time and your happy ever after. Stop chasing shadows, stop those crazy thoughts and start believing in yourself. I wish you luck, and definitely luck is what you need.
This is a battle of allegations. Suddenly, love became contempt and disgust. Incongruous as the statement was, horrible decisions made horrible relationships. So sudden, so unsure. Just full of hatred. We are too fool, too different from each other and caught up by everything around us. Perhaps our destiny is in different life. We could just lie within ourselves and then give each other something to hold on or we could just unlove and forget about everything.
Pagsubok na walang katapusan. Napapahinto napapaisip san na napunta ang pag iibigan. Ilang beses na nag kasakitan. Paulit ulit ang bangayan, paikot ikot ang dahilan, sunod sunod na alitan. Unti unting nawawalan ng saysay ang pag titiis, puro sakit. Sama ng loob na hindi na maikubli, puro hinanakit. Paano pag gising mo’y parang ayaw mo na? Lahat ng sama nang loob ay nag sama sama. Lahat na lang pag kakamali, nadadagdagan pa kada lingong dumadaan. Parang sinasadya na lang, parang tama na lang, sumuko na lang. Pwede ba un? Pwede bang umayaw na lang. Nang walang sisihan, nang hindi na umabot sa pag kakagalit ang dating nag iibigan. Tumigil na lang, huminto na lang, tutal naman hindi mauubos ang mga pagsubok hangga’t hindi natatapos ang pagiibigan.
His usual impish smile. He had been around long enough that he knew all the tricks and had wept and cried enough. With curious eyes he watched her gestures and the tension in her posture as well as her body language. He then created a world within his own mind, and in that private place he fantasied about her. That buries his solitude for a while. Seclusion adding loneliness to his excess misery. A lonely world wherein his alone, a dream. It’s not his choice of course. He is scared to love, to tell her how much he adored her. Breathing extensively, his eyes woke and turned into sadness.