Pagsubok

Pagsubok na walang katapusan. Napapahinto napapaisip san na napunta ang pag iibigan. Ilang beses na nag kasakitan. Paulit ulit ang bangayan, paikot ikot ang dahilan, sunod sunod na alitan. Unti unting nawawalan ng saysay ang pagtitiis, puro sakit. Sama ng loob na hindi na maikubli, puro hinanakit. Paano pag gising mo’y parang ayaw mo na? Lahat ng sama nang loob ay nag sama sama. Lahat na lang nagkakamali, nadadagdagan pa kada lingong dumadaan. Parang sinasadya na lang, parang tama na lang, sumuko na lang. Pwede ba un? Pwede bang umayaw na lang. Nang walang sisihan, nang hindi na umabot sa pag kakagalit ang dating nag iibigan. Tumigil na lang, huminto na lang, tutal naman hindi mauubos ang mga pagsubok hangga’t hindi natatapos ang pagiibigan.

Impish Smile

His usual impish smile. He had been around long enough that he knew all the tricks and had wept and cried enough. With curious eyes, he watched her gestures and the tension in her posture as well as her body language. He then created a world within his own mind, and in that private place, he fantasied about her. That buries his solitude for a while. Seclusion adding loneliness to his excess misery. A lonely world wherein his alone, a dream. It’s not his choice of course. He is scared to love, to tell her how much he adored her. Breathing extensively, his eyes woke and turned into sadness.

Lord, hear our plea

Forgive me for not following the words of our highness. I heard too many whispers in this world. It seems that every path has its darkness and light has no way to be found, we are not seeing well enough, not well enough to see his bountiful grace. God, be our guest and lead us in the right direction of your worthiness, even I’m not worthy of your healing salve please help me oh lord. Tell these people to defy the call of Lucifer itself scattered with this temporary world. Too many heroes dead, too many slaves waiting to be saved. Unworthy as we were, undeserved forgiveness and unearned mercy, we are waiting to be saved. Bring us home to your kingdom. Lord, hear our plea.

Don’t leave

Let’s defy the gravity while counting the stars
The moonlight shines over and blessed us
I’ll give you this dear diamond ring tonight
Maybe live this once in a lifetime fantasy
And leave and forget everything behind
Start this love affair as the darkness sweep
Close your eyes baby make a wish
We’re gonna celebrate this whole night
Let’s take it slow or can skip the basics
Foreplay listen to your heart as it beats
Feel me, you so belong to me
It’s so perfect here next to you baby
I’ll do everything for you just, no, don’t leave

Just take me away

I’m here once again
Knocking on your door
Oh girl answer my call
I want you to be my lady
Will you please call me
And let everyone else go
Don’t ask me to take it slow
Oh just follow my lead
Don’t be confused
Let’s take chances
Just because
We are so in love
Don’t make a pause
Just take me away

The Only Woman

Forgive her because she can’t hide her brilliance. I adore her as much as you do. As her eyes sparkle every time she smiles. Yet don’t let her innocent appearance fool you. Where every wise man took foolish ideas just to have her, and none of course worked. She’s used to that loving attention everyone offered as she can see you through and through, such cleverness of this young beautiful lady. Nevertheless, no one will ever take her place in my heart, as this lady, is the only woman I can see.

PS: Happy Birthday to me

In this realm of reality

In this realm of reality
Switching poles of negativity
Dreaming of equal entropy
Seeing human brutality
Dare to defeat every blasphemy
Marrying twisted life mystically

Selos

Nagseselos ng walang karapatan
Pakiramdam na binabalewala lang
Madayang tadhana puso’y nasaktan
Siya’y tinuring lang na kaibigan
Takot aminin ang katotohanan
Baka ito pa ang sanhi ng iwasan
Kaya mabuting itago na lang
Kesa masira pa ang pagkakaibigan

Scared of falling

You were so good at showing your feelings before, why not now? You’re scared. Scared of falling into a pit that can easily shatter your heart right away, like last time. You lost everything and gained nothing at all. That’s defeat you see, and everything in you was affected by that mistake. One mistake. You’ve lost faith and became doubtful, so unsure.  Okay, fine, you did your best last time, and almost every time you get away with no baggage at all but not this time, not with her. You can try to love again once more like before or you can bury yourself by not letting go of that feeling, in which something is telling me it’s the latter you’ll choose. Don’t get me wrong but just let it go, no explanations, just let it fade away. Don’t ask me how. You’re better than this and you know it. I know you caught everything I just said, as you usually did. But I can see your distrust. It wasn’t your fault really. You merely just assumed.