Our meeting was pure happenstance. Now, I’m here all alone in a quiet pocket of time, a place where I have reached total solitude. I can think of our thousand happy memories together, but the thoughts died before taking shape. Time will tell how much I love you. Yet time also taught us that everyone has to say goodbye sooner or later. What a cliché. She had me. The feeling was so ugly, so alien. I could say that she cast a spell on me, but like love, happy endings are only for fairy tales.
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Dubious
A perverted stare studied her curves, imagining touching her inch by inch, part by part. That expression in her lovely eyes. Everything seems surreal just looking at her. Incredible. His mortal lips long to kiss her everywhere.
Hesitant to approach her, he realizes that he is in love, truly, madly in love. He simply wants to be with her every night and day, driven by motives both good and bad. For love is no accident, and a smile is the beginning of every love story.
Will he confess his love, or will he deny it again? “Destiny will still find a way through doubts,” he said. He will wait for the perfect moment. Dubious, he then asks himself, “For how long?”
Forget everything
This is a battle of allegations. Suddenly, love became contempt and disgust. Incongruous as the statement was, horrible decisions created a horrible relationship. So sudden, so unsure, just full of hatred. We were fools, too different from each other, and caught up in everything around us. Perhaps our destiny is in a different life. We could just lie to ourselves and give each other something to hold on to, or we could just walk away and forget about everything.
Pagsubok
Pagsubok na walang katapusan. Napapahinto, napapaisip saan na napunta ang pag-iibigan? Ilang beses nang nagkasakitan. Paulit-ulit ang bangayan, paikot-ikot ang dahilan, sunod-sunod na alitan. Unti-unting nawawalan ng saysay ang pagtitiis; puro sakit. Sama ng loob na hindi na maikubli, puro hinanakit.
Paano kapag paggising mo’y parang ayaw mo na? Lahat ng sama ng loob ay nagsama-sama. Lahat na lang nagkakamali, nadadagdagan pa bawat linggong dumadaan. Parang sinasadya na lang, parang tama na lang, sumuko na lang. Pwede ba iyon? Pwede bang umayaw na lang nang walang sisihan, nang hindi na umabot sa pagkagalit ang dating nagmamahalan? Tumigil na lang, huminto na lang, tutal naman hindi mauubos ang mga pagsubok hangga’t hindi natatapos ang pag-iibigan.
Impish Smile
His usual impish smile. He had been around long enough that he knew all the tricks and had wept enough. With curious eyes, he watched her gestures and the tension in her posture, as well as her body language. He then created a world within his own mind, and in that private place, he fantasized about her. That buried his solitude for a while, even as seclusion added loneliness to his excess misery, a lonely world where he was alone, a dream.
It’s not his choice, of course. He was scared to love, scared to tell her how much he adored her. Exhaling deeply, his eyes opened, filled with sadness.
Lord, hear our plea
Forgive me for not following the words of our highness. I heard too many whispers in this world. It seems that every path has its darkness and light has no way to be found, we are not seeing well enough, not well enough to see his bountiful grace. God, be our guest and lead us in the right direction of your worthiness, even I’m not worthy of your healing salve please help me oh lord. Tell these people to defy the call of Lucifer itself scattered with this temporary world. Too many heroes dead, too many slaves waiting to be saved. Unworthy as we were, undeserved forgiveness and unearned mercy, we are waiting to be saved. Bring us home to your kingdom. Lord, hear our plea.
The Only Woman
Forgive her, because she can’t hide her brilliance. I adore her as much as you do. Her eyes sparkle every time she smiles. Yet don’t let her innocent appearance fool you. Many wise men tried foolish schemes just to have her, and none of them worked, of course. She’s used to that loving attention everyone offers, for she can see right through you; such is the cleverness of this beautiful young lady. Nevertheless, no one will ever take her place in my heart, for she is the only woman I can see.
P.S. Happy Birthday to me!
Selos
Nagseselos nang walang karapatan,
Pakiramdam na binabalewala lang.
Madayang tadhana, puso’y nasaktan,
Itinuring lang na kaibigan.
Takot aminin ang katotohanan,
Baka ito pa ang sanhi ng pag-iiwasan.
Kaya mabuting itago na lang,
Kaysa masira pa ang pagkakaibigan.
Scared of falling
You were so good at showing your feelings before, why not now? You’re scared. Scared of falling into a pit that can easily shatter your heart right away, like last time. You lost everything and gained nothing at all. That’s defeat, you see, and everything in you was affected by that mistake. One mistake. You’ve lost faith and become doubtful, so unsure.
Okay, fine, you did your best last time, and almost every time you got away with no baggage at all but not this time, not with her. You can try to love again once more like before, or you can bury yourself in that feeling; and something tells me it’s the latter you’ll choose. Don’t get me wrong, but just let it go, no explanations, just let it fade away. Don’t ask me how. You’re better than this and you know it.
I know you caught everything I just said, as you usually do. But I can see your distrust. It wasn’t really your fault. You merely assumed.
