I do not need opportunities. I will create my own. I do not need inspiration. I have my own will and passion.
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21 Years of Age
Life moves fast, and things are happening quickly. To be completely honest, this is not how I envisioned my life turning out. It is so much more than I ever imagined. I am deeply grateful to God, my mother, and my friends for bringing out the best in me. I truly mean it; I never expected life to be this good.
My mother always told me I was lucky, and she was right. Whenever I lose my way, opportunity seems to find its way to my door. Paradoxically, that scares me sometimes. Living a life that feels this effortless makes me fear that it is almost unfair, and I worry about losing it all if I make a mistake. But I know it is a mix of luck, determination, and skill. Life has given me meaningful opportunities to understand its real value, and I can happily say I have no regrets. I feel ready for whatever challenges come next.
Looking back, I realize my core self hasn’t changed much since childhood. The passions I hold today at 21 are the very same ones I held as a child. Nothing is inherently different except that I am prouder of who I am. I love my life, I love the journey that brought me here, and I intend to keep living it with the same passion.
Separate ways
It is a long night, the rain pouring outside.
The lights are off; it is dark and cold.
I lie here half-awake, consumed by thoughts of you.
I gave up everything and gained nothing in return.
Perhaps I am fighting for what I can never hold,
Or trying too hard to save what is already gone.
Here I lie, unable to move, speak, or scream.
Is it wrong to give up when the ache is this deep?
I am not that strong, and you know it.
I am quick to anger, impulsive, and foolish;
I am weak, barely standing on my own two feet.
I do not know where to turn anymore.
Holding on feels entirely wrong
So let us walk away, and go our separate ways.
Problems
I tend to overthink, constantly analyzing every potential consequence before making a move. It is like running every decision through a series of “what if” scenarios, mapping out every possible step. I am not a risk-taker; I prefer a predictable, smooth path to any solution. While every choice carries consequences, knowing what lies ahead allows you to brace for impact. Most of the time, my predictions hold true, making future steps easier to calculate and building my confidence along the way.
Yet, an unknown variable occasionally surfaces out of nowhere. Fate plays its hand, my calculations fail, and everything unravels into a hard-earned lesson. Though my confidence takes a hit, I refuse to waste energy assigning blame. Instead, I try to reframe the setback as a challenge turning a failure into motivation. It is an ideal goal, easier said than done, but necessary. Even if an unexpected crisis temporarily shakes my faith in my analytical skills, it ultimately builds the resilience I need to face the unknown next time.
Rise above all
It is not all smiles and laughter. Sometimes tears will fall. Yet those times are the best opportunity to rise above it all.
Mistake
We are really not meant to be. We are just too attached. Falling in love was a mistake.
Follow your heart
When everything seems to fail, never abandon your plan and never surrender your dreams.
Simply change your pace perhaps you are asking for too much, too soon.
Slow down, but do not doubt your direction; keep your eyes on the path and follow your heart.
It is our choice
We cannot blame someone else for our past. It is our own choices and decisions that ruin our future. Maybe it was not a completely free choice, but handling that situation remains our responsibility. We can wake up every day regretting those choices. Instead, I prefer to wake up every sweet morning working to make things right. A perfect evening might not await me, but a peaceful night motivates me to wake up again for a brand new start tomorrow.
I really don’t care
I really do not care if no one reads my blog. You can insult me for every grammatical error or spelling mistake you might find. I do not care about that either. I created this blog so that when I grow old, I hope I can still read this to remind myself how human I am and to reminisce about the passions I had when I was just a kid.
