For you, who are ignorantly commenting on my blog. For you, who misunderstood any of my compositions. For you, who are using aliases and or copying his name, for I know that you are the same person with different screen names because you have the same IP address of 99.255.180.178. Shame on you. I don’t care who you are, for god sake. Stop, or should I say calm yourself and please don’t be too naive. For these compositions does not refer to anyone in particular.

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Heaven is not a place so don’t ask me where is it. For Heaven is not just a concept, not a realm, not a dimension nor even not the holiest possible place where god and his angels may dwell. For me, Heaven is simply a state of mind. A state between unconsciousness and being dead, where we believe (as a delusion) we are living with God because we feel total happiness with no worries, with no problems; plain total peace of our mind, of our heart and our soul.

Ganto pala ang feeling ng sakay sa isang ambulansya. Para mung pinag sama ang taas ng ferris wheel at bilis ng roller coaster. Idagdag mo pa, wala kang harness at meron ka pang sounds na weeng weeng with colors on your side. Tumatabi pa ang lahat ng kotse sa harapan at dama mo ang pa sikot sikot at bilis ng drifting. Para ka din asa isang sports car na kasali sa isang 1 on 1 championship at mananalo ka ng isang buhay parang sa mario. Ang layo na namin sa laguna. Pero malayo pa din kmi sa orthopedic. Dama na dama ko din ang lahat ng humps, palalagyan ko nga to ng suspension mala fortuner. At ng dumaan kmi sa manila streets, patuloy pa din ang ride sa roller coaster, ang bilis. Pero ang oras ang bagal. Magdadasal nlng ako. Nahihilo nako dito e. Dumating na din kmi sa wakas. Bumabaa na ako. Tulala. Sabay naupo ako sa gilid. P***. Suko nako.

I don’t want to hear anything you want to say
It is just that I’m too tired and exhausted
Tell me it’s over. I will accept it
Rather than continue this one
You are my one and only
I’ll die if you will leave me
But that’s far better than this
You tortured my humble love
And don’t try to reason out
Just go away, and I’ll stay here
Waiting for your blazing love to come back
I know that there’s more important than our love
Studies, friends, relatives, and parents are likes
But what do they know about our hardships
Nothing, so since the start I knew that no one will understand
And for me, their just adversaries, who’re trying to oppose
Our so-called bond, relationship, our love

I thought that this will never end
How come it seems it’s so pointless.
To hold on and not to let go.
Is it because of all those lies.
Or just because I’m tired.
Tired of those broken promises.
And from those argues and petty fights.
Now, I’m alone and you’re not texting.
Feeling I’m ignored and took for granted.
The truth is I’m getting used to this.
Because I knew that nothing will change.
Until you realize that there is nothing more to be done.
For our relationship to continue to stay on its line.

Don’t bring back the old times
Everything is changed
Since you played me dirty
You know I gave you the world
So how can you do this to me
Maybe time will bring forgiveness
I just don’t wanna think about it
Yet my heart is still sick about it
You said you’re sorry
But baby it is not that easy
Girl, I put all of my trust in this relationship
Still, I believe you don’t want to hurt me badly
But I’m afraid to take again the risk
Sorry because this issue just can’t die
But baby it is not that eas

Girls fantasies like a true prince charming or a rich knight shining armor or boys fantasies for demure yet sexy and seductive innocent girl are ambitious. For love is not based on this fantasies alone, instead, love is based on the person you love and nothing else.

How could you do this to me?
Feeling I’m fooled and ignored.
After all that we’ve been through.
Giving everything I’ve got.
Putting all of my trust, faith, and love.
Yet for some reasons, you played with my heart.
Stupid me to believe in you and for such love.

I’m hurt, deeply and truly
Shit, this is pain and agony
Suffering from intense anger
Making me depressed moreover
I don’t want to talk to you
Even see your view
Can’t move, can’t think
I’m alone and on my own
Holding my own hand
Sad and reluctant
Crying on my shoulder
Stomping my feet with anger
Cursing you girl
I saw you cheating
Playing with my heart
My heart that truly loves you
Loyal and faithful
But busted and cold freezing
I’m weak, can’t move, can’t eat
But there is nothing I can do
I have just to set you free
For you to love him
Or at least for my dignity
I hate how much I love you
Can kill you if I wanted to
Fuck you boo