Problems

I tend to overthink, constantly analyzing every potential consequence before making a move. It is like running every decision through a series of “what if” scenarios, mapping out every possible step. I am not a risk-taker; I prefer a predictable, smooth path to any solution. While every choice carries consequences, knowing what lies ahead allows you to brace for impact. Most of the time, my predictions hold true, making future steps easier to calculate and building my confidence along the way.

Yet, an unknown variable occasionally surfaces out of nowhere. Fate plays its hand, my calculations fail, and everything unravels into a hard-earned lesson. Though my confidence takes a hit, I refuse to waste energy assigning blame. Instead, I try to reframe the setback as a challenge turning a failure into motivation. It is an ideal goal, easier said than done, but necessary. Even if an unexpected crisis temporarily shakes my faith in my analytical skills, it ultimately builds the resilience I need to face the unknown next time.

Follow your heart

When everything seems to fail, never abandon your plan and never surrender your dreams.

Simply change your pace perhaps you are asking for too much, too soon.

Slow down, but do not doubt your direction; keep your eyes on the path and follow your heart.

We

We built years of love, yet you destroyed it with a single mistake. You ruined us in a matter of minutes, and tore me apart with just one word.

Why do I believe in God?

Two fundamental axioms in physics are the law of conservation—that energy cannot be created out of nothing—and the principle of causality. This inevitably leads to the ultimate question: Where did everything come from?

Consider the causal chain:

  • Effect: The physical universe > Cause: The Big Bang

  • Effect: The Big Bang > Cause: The initial Singularity

  • Effect: The Singularity > Cause: ?

Science can trace the universe back to the initial singularity, but it cannot explain what caused the singularity itself, nor what preceded time. Because physics reaches an absolute standstill at this boundary, science alone cannot resolve the ultimate question of existence. It is precisely at this uncaused first cause that I find my reason to believe in God—the Supreme Being and Creator of all things.

Heaven

Heaven is not a physical location, so do not ask me where it is. It is not merely a concept, a realm, or a dimension, nor is it simply the holiest plane where God and His angels dwell.

To me, Heaven is a state of mind—a transient space between unconsciousness and death. It is a state where we experience the blissful illusion of residing with the Divine, consumed by absolute happiness free from worry or strife: pure, total peace of mind, heart, and soul.

As I met you

As the moon meets the sun,

As we grow happy and whole,

As we become united as one,

As my lips meet hers,

As our bodies entwine.

As we face our struggles,

As they forbid her to love me,

As they try to drive us apart,

As we fight to overcome,

As we endure every trial.

As our hearts begin to break,

As our promises start to fail,

As we grow weary of fighting,

As we grow sick of arguing,

As we lose our faith,

As you whisper goodbye,

As I offer my deepest apologies,

As you tell me the trust is gone,

As we drift apart.

As I sit with the memories,

As my last tears fall like rain,

As you surrender me to loneliness,

As you leave me behind,

As you finally let me go.

Ardent Love

They condemn our ardent love,

Flaming bright since long ago.

Nothing can divide us now,

No matter what tomorrow holds.

We have conquered every trial,

Adversity and all its storms.

Look at us still holding tight,

Our fire untouched and warm.

We share a love that only grows

You are my first, my absolute.

Bound forever, heart to heart,

A sacred truth beyond dispute.

Meeting hades

My heart is numb,

I cannot shout.

My mind is blank,

Beyond all doubt.

I write these words

Yet fail to express

The heavy truth

Of this distress.

I am fainting,

Barely breathing.

A sharp, relentless pain

Like the venom of a sting,

Like drifting lost at sea.

Go on, torture me

Let misery reign.

Break what is left,

Inflict more pain.

For this is hell

A plunge into the dark abyss,

To shake the hand of Hades.

Forbidden Love

Miles stretch between us,

Drifting us apart.

I am lost without you,

Unable to bear this isolation.

Standing in the rain,

Tears mixing with water,

An ache deep in my heart

My mind refuses to understand.

A tied destiny,

A forbidden love.

I thought heaven blessed our union,

Yet the world denies us,

Refusing its permission.

We are not free,

Nor are we at liberty.

Shackled by responsibility,

Yet we know we are not wrong.

With a passion this strong,

All we ask

Is that you respect our decision.